I Lied, It Is. This Is A Rant.

Hello all, I’m Madie and this is another rant. If you are someone I know (someone at my school or someone who knows me personally), you might know what I’m talking about depending on who you are. Depending on the response to this or how I feel later I might take it down, but most likely not.

Bob I

Bob. Boy i dont even know where to start. Um so if i dont capitolize my i’s im sorry, this is a rant and not meant to be formal. Okay, so bob, ive know this dude for like a year now. TBH I kinda regret inviting him to our friend group. I AM IN NO WAY SHAPE OR FORM MEANING TO BE RUDE OR DISRESPECTFUL I AM JUST TOSSING MY FEELINGS AROUND! I dont really think it wouldve made any major difference in my life if i hadnt friended him. Yeah, he couldve been popular and whatever else, but i would be ok wih that now. He is an annoying dude, and i just cannot stand him any longer. It started with my friend having a crush on him. why. he is so obnoxious and disrepectful its unreal. so when he first moved here from a certain city i shall not name because people will know who i am talking about, he said he had been bullied. i felt bad for him because i was bullied too and i know how bad it is, or at least how bad mine was. I tried…so hard…to be nice to him. i never called him stupid or annoying (outloud at least) how many of my other friends had done. But boy….i dont know. He is just annoying. imagine a little brother. a little brother who if you get something wrong, they rub it in your face and make sure you know you were wrong. he laughs super loud and stupid for everyone to hear if you make a mistake (for example, i tripped on my own foot cus im awkward like that, he was behind me, and started laughing and saying how stupid and clumsy i am. i was mortified) i have wanted to just go offff on him for so long but he just doesnt care. i get people who are like that, but its different with him. he doesnt care and will call you stupid and all this other stuff. I just hate him with a deep passion. he is just….he will probably b the death of me and thats just the start. We had an assembly today/this morning and he talked the ENTIRE TIME!!! yeah, i get that those things are boring, but people ere being announced as king/queen for our dance tomorrow, and he was talking about a volleyball tournament. He was so disrespectful and it makes me want to throw up just talking about him. he made my seemingly great day HORRIBLE and he ruined it and just pissed me off so much more than i needed to be that its unreal. i do not like him but he thinks he is my friend and im trying to avoid him at all costs. and now i have lunch with him so i need to find a hiding spot….

Shelly II

Shelly. Oooooooh this one is interesting. Okay so like, i have a pretty large friend group and it consists of a lot of people. Guys, girls, those who have yet to make up their mind, and so on. Well shelly…she just. she tries a bit too hard for the guys. She ha recently been wearing rediculous amounts of makeup and it doesnt look too good. Im sorry! But like, if im being honest, i dont think its a good look for her. On top of that she has dated literally almost every single dude in my friend group. and then she thinks that just because they dont say hi or he is talking to ANYONE ELSE that he lost interest in her, so she dumps him inlike a week or less. the guys think its too awkward cus she is always around us so they leave and we usually dont see them too often. and some of the guys she has dated were really nice and i thought they were cool but stuf happened. she has dated at LEAST 10 guys in the span of a year now. it gets annoying if ya know WIM.

Lacey IV

Lacey. This one is kinda tough cus shes one of my newer friends. So she was really nice when i met her, she seemed cool and whatnot. But like…she is annoying too. i think i have a problem with a lot of my friends that i see on a daily basis and its annoying but i cant do anything about it i feel. She is really nice, but some days…its too much. i will give an example; I walk into class, maybe i will wait outside until the bell rings. she will come up to me and be super loud and say “hi madison!” and just leave. Fast foreward 5 minutes, im working on work, and she starts asking me for answers. i say no, she asks why im being rude, and i say im busy. she asks me whats wrong. i say nothing and lie, and she keeps asking. i get frusterated and she keeps asking, then becomes passive agressive. she will then ask one of my other friends to see whats wrong, and yeah. They she will lightly tug me hair or talk about nonsense with me and i just want to work. Tugging my hair bothers me so much to where i can go from good to worse in a matter of seconds.

I dont know what to do about any of this. this is mostly why im depressed a lot, because the same stuff happens every. single. day. I need a break but i see these people on a daily basis, and if i dont see them they will track me down and i just want to escape. I need a break. a few days, maybe a school week, im just tired and dont want to talk to any of these people for a while, ya know? do you guys have any advice cus im really stuck and i want out