So tell me why my 11 yr. old brother has a special box of chocolates for “someone” (aka a crush he doesn’t want us to know about but is horrible at hiding it) but like…its just so cute. He might get a girlfriend guys! I know, why am I so excited about this? But like, its just really cute. Meanwhile I am in my room, planning on staying up late (and probably reading/crying while I am) to have some quality alone time. I thought my crush was ’bout to ask me out but no. So yet again I will be lonely and sadddd and just not wanting to be at school. Like sometimes I honestly don’t think dating someone would be too good for my mental health or just my life in general, but I also want someone who loves me and who I can love. Its just boring without that. And I really miss those times when I did *think* I loved someone, and *thought* they loved me ~